mia-exams

exams are coming to its end!tomorrow is my last paper and right now im slacking work.how irony is that?(well,at least to make myself feel good is bringing all my notes,but in the end i didnt even read it.just flipping it n stare blankly as it is)

most of my classmates took leave today and getting a lot of to catch up.for me, i dont feel a need to actually apply leave today because

1. i dont want to make my boss angry(i just dont understand him actually,sometimes his good,most of the time he just like to get on my nerves) 
2. i dont want to waste my off days (well actually i never applied leave for my own sweet time,most of the time is for my exams)
3. i bet if i apply leave i will not study at home but to watch my tv series.teehee.

its not that i feel confident on doing the paper, its just this semester makes me slack so much.i dont feel like studying,revising as much as i did last semester.i guess all the energy for 2 REPORT WRITING and a PRESENTATION sucks up all the energy in me.

i feel so lazy to do my revision every time i flip open my files.so great that i spend 13456546486149849744hrs of watching movies & dramas, i only like revise for only an hour or 2.tsk tsk tsk

being slacking is one thing.

i love to procrastinate.i would like push all the revision and doing my assessment at the last minute.no,not my projects and assignments,this is my own revision that im talking about.

hopefully i can pass all my papers and go to next semester.
and i feel that this course is so long!im demoralised.i want to change to full time so i can finish by next September insyaAllah instead of June 2013.

but the thing is i have to do some emailing with the student support executive.sigh.

and i want to leave my job.as much as it is slacking and $$ comes in.it doesnt give me any satisfaction and prospect to learn more.boss has discontinued me to do the online updates.then he stopped me doing paper works, like hello?what am i going to do now?it sadden me more as he didnt includes me in his meetings and only half way through he will introduce me with our clients and vendors.he also said something in chinese which i also understand and feel dishearten.i found out some items in the new shop that dishearten me too.

i just dont feel im needed and fit in.my boss,he is a great guy.is just that when he doesnt like someone,he will say that he doesnt.i'm trying my best but it seems that everything that i do is not up to his standard and whatever nots.

i told my mom,i guess me and my boss needed each other but we dont really liking the situation.he needs somebody to do fulltime,we have been looking for people take up the job but to no avail.for me,i stayed because i needed the money to pay up my school fees and my expenses.so yeah, we are stuck for each other.

so i talked to my mom on changing to fulltime.she considering it and feels that its ok.but having to pay 2 semester in 1 go is such a pain in the pocket.

mom wants to join back the working force,with having me having 3 hours of school everyday seems that she can do it.well,hopefully im doing the right choice.i need a new job badly without having school as a barrier.

Ya Allah.yassir umuri :(