The joy that is within;its real

Happy Birthday!

2012-01-23T23:32:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to me!

Turned 23 and not proud of it. Thanks to the constant du'as and wishes. I purposely disabled my birtday notification on fb. Most of them didnt knew it but i guess they saw on it on my wall.hehe!

As I was saying, I didnt want to be in Singapore at all. I want to be mia, not to be found somewhere far from Singapore. Even my family members wasnt really aware and i dont really care much about it though. I wanted to e in Cairo, it was my initial plan until my parents didnt allow due to reasons that i am still schooling, need the money, better to go Umrah first before going for holidays and the list goes on and on!

Well, anyways, thanks to my dearly sister like i never had, Nani, she surprised me with a cake and present!yeayyy!heheh

i seriously love the pictures.heheh
thanks babe!:))

NUS Tour by Nirannie

2012-01-18T15:45:00.000+08:00

So on Monday, I had a personal tour by my dear friend Syahirah Aiman. She's a current student in NUS, major in Business.

I really had a great time with her. Really had a great time in NUS too.

It broaden my perspective as there were quite a lot of foreign students especially the "ang mo". I specially called them ang mo because I'm not so sure whether they are Americans, British, Australian or other parts of the world. Sadly to say, there wasn't been much of male malay students around. Where are the guys? Maybe in Engine School.

UTown was the greatest where the combine hostels and lecture rooms. Great place to hang out with the scenery and wind. It feel like I'm not in Singapore.haha!

Business school was like more to business corporate place. The alumni lounge was great because of the OTTO Massage chair.LOL!

Meet new friends, talking about hosting a muslimah event. Can't wait!!& listen to the lovey stories about them going abroad.Iran, Vietnam,Qatar, Dubai, Paris, London. nicest things, wishing that i can see it with my own eyes.Making friends with them and all.sending presents and cards.damn,i want to do that too!

Most of all, I really regretted that I didnt study well to get through but alhamdulillah it was a great journey. NUS isn't everything. It's just a leaping stone.

2012 a great welcome

2012-01-09T21:42:00.000+08:00

There's so many things happening in my life that I wish I have time to share it here but I guess I just some up most of the things that happened.

First thing happened in 2011 was getting my feet back to study, diploma in Management Studies. It felt great after 2 years of break. I think I'm on a good track right now. Alhamdulillah. But I have some changes on my course from part time to full time.

Another thing is that my home business-cakes.
I began to fall in love with all the designs and the involvement. Its been quite a good year, there's always a requst every month. Alhamdulillah.

For now, I am blissfully blessed with whatever I'm experiencing right now. I can't be more grateful. Thigs have been better for me and I've plan to travel and relax for 2012.

2012.
travel
relax
graduation
have fun
let my head down

Giving a thought that...

2011-12-25T11:34:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry to hear it. No wonder you were very melancholic about it all the time and you were starting to give me weird vibes.

I'm sorry that you broke your heart again but I guess I can't do much about it. I don't know how to fix it and I don't think that we are gonna be good like old times.

I'm not holding grudges but its just awkward to me. Very very awkward indeed. For every time that I had in this world, I wish you all the best and hoping that your heart will heal from those pains.

I hope Allah will remove your sorrows and replace it with happiness.

But it aint life if its no sorrow yo!

Mission Impossible 4

2011-12-25T11:13:00.000+08:00

well, as stated above, no backup, no plan, Mira & I didnt planned to watch this movie. We wanted to watch New Year's Eve and we missed the slot time.So we decided to watch at 0915pm at Cathay Cineleisure.
The ticketing lady said it will be only 10mins advertisement but we were shock that the movie actually started at 0940pm!

The movie was the best action movie ever watched besides District 12, a French movie. So much suspends that it just makes my heart skips every time. Story line was easy to understand yet the hardship that they had was critical. Not too complicated yet suspends was all around. Fighting skills was nice, shooting wasn't the plus point if you asked me if you want to compare with Hitman. Having to based at 3 countries was a good move and tactics to trick the bad guys are one of the most looking forward to. Gadgets on the other hand are at the highest end but eventually everything could not work because of errors.

Actors, personally Tom Cruise is a very old chap to be the hero in this movie but since he is the producer, I'll give it a pass. Paula Patton is a one of the best but too much cleavage was expected, as to illusionary the eyes of the bad guys. the other guys are so-so. Too many characters brings too much attention and you have remember every single of them through out 2 hours + movie.haha.

Overall, 5 stars. Worth every buck that i spent on it. Thanks Mira for accompanying me :)

EMCEE II

2011-12-24T17:15:00.000+08:00

So here are the pictures :)

so the newly weds are honeymooning now for a Europe tour till new year.Jealous much!!

EMCEE

2011-12-23T20:12:00.000+08:00

OK Alhamdulillah my cousin is someone's wife.awwww

and alhamdulillah everything went fine on that they except me. I feel so horrible coz i didnt make any preparation on becoming an emcee and i said things inappropriate.such a disgrace coz i was speaking in Malay :O

saw few people that i recongnize & i just love the day.

the only thig that i dont like is that i didnt manage to interact much with my cousins whom i believe i didnt get to talk so much with them.

pictures?
my pictures could not transfer from my SD Card to the computer for now.maybe i'll fix it later and post the pictures ya?:)

2011-12-22T19:53:00.001+08:00

i mimpi u

2011-12-14T13:15:00.001+08:00

ok im being mentel today and my mood is suddenly lighten up just because of one thing.

i dreamt about you.who?i shall not discuss who.

but surprisingly i can remember every single thing that happen and i remember you.usually i cant remember face and things that happen in my dreams but i did, vividly.

even though a dream is only a dream, i still like it, the way you smile, the way things happen.heheeh

mentel sangatx1000000000000 ♥ ♥

ok bye

My company's first ever

2011-12-12T19:19:00.000+08:00

The first ever expo, the greatest experience and most of all, I had a lot of fun with my Chinese (from China) colleagues. First things first, I got to know more a bout my boss of his characteristic. He doesn't trust people, he wanted to do all by his own and in the end, the staffs suffer because of the loads and backlogs. He is a very good person with kind heart. He likes to make connections with people around him, make new friends, being friendly and all. He only trust certain people that he knows of. He also hate people who makes him angry and make things really hard for him.

As for me, I don't become what I did previously, being the commanding or ordering people around. I just like to laid back, let people do themselves and I'll do my own things at my own pace. I am more childish than I've known off that people thought that I am not suitable to be 22 year old lady. I get pissed off easily of people crossed the line but most of the time I couldn't even care less about it. Be it, as long as you are not rude to me, that's fine for me.

Well, back to the expo. I spent my weekends in the Suntec hall. I'm quite tired. Our shop was the only shop that had so many items selling and really really really messy. I kinda wanted to hide my face or even, don't even want to represent the company. I feel like the big guys and frequent tenants are like smirking and laughing at us like with our things and the set ups. Of course, one of the things is that my boss is very enthusiastic person, another thing is that he thought that it is like an IT show or expo sale. This is an exhibition for the magazine and having seminars for the students. We are here for exposure and not sale. It is definitely very hard to sell things here. Most of all, I thing it is a big loss since my boss employed like 10 extra people to help around. If he could have open one of the shops and having t at the exhibition, it would have been great. But oh wells.

All in all, new exposure, new experience. I feel like I'm loving expos or events more.hahahha!

I have another event coming up and I am the emcee, weee~ cant wait,hehehhe.
will upload the pictures soon :)

Gay/Lesbian Muslim Marriage

2011-12-08T13:23:00.000+08:00

The Muslim wayAsra and Sarah decided upon a 'nikah' - a Muslim matrimonial contract. Whilst nikahs have traditionally been the reserve of heterosexual Muslims, Asra and Sarah were aware that other gay Muslims had followed this route and the couple decided to investigate further.
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It's still very difficult for me to tell my family about my life being a lesbian. They know I am a believer, they know I am religious, but going as far as saying I am a lesbian is quite hard”
Asra, gay Muslim
"A few friends said you don't really have to have an official Imam, but you need someone who is knowledgeable enough about the Qur'an to do it. Fortunately, one of our friends was, and she offered to do it. She's a lesbian herself, and she said we could do it in her home."
Three months after the proposal, the big day came. Asra wore a white shalwar kameez - a traditional Pakistani outfit - and Sarah a pink dress.
"I wanted to wear leather, but Asra wouldn't let me," she sighs.

the so called bonus

2011-12-08T12:12:00.000+08:00

To me, February is the only month you get paid correctly in the whole year in Singapore. Employers in Singapore will never overpay you in February. Fat hope and you know it. There are four weeks in a month and we get paid for 28 days in a month. that's it. Straightforward.
In short we are underpaid in every other month other than February.
January - 3 days
March - 3 days
April - 2 days
May - 3 days
June - 2 days
July - 3 days
August - 3 days
September - 2 days
October - 3 days
November - 2 days
December - 3 days
3 + 3 + 2 + 3 + 2 + 3 + 3 + 2 + 3 + 2 + 3 = 29 days.
The shorter way to calculate this would be:
1 month 4 weeks.
You get paid 12 times a year = 12 x 4 = 48 weeks.
There are 52 weeks in a year. 52 - 48 = 4 weeks unpaid
The fact is that Singapore employers hold 29 days of your pay over the year and could refuse to pay you your rightful money if you did not 'perform'. Even if they do it, that meant many employees in Singapore did not get any bonuses from their companies at all. The 13th month is your pay. It is Not a bonus!
In reality, if they pay us back the '13th month bonus', they employer still owe us 1 day's wages (29 - 28) and get away with it year after year, decade after decade. If you leave the company before the year is up your '13th month bonus' is forfeited instead of pro-rated. That's robbery.

Dipermudahkan

2011-12-06T13:21:00.004+08:00

Tanda-tanda kalau dia JODOH kita itu ada dua:

✿~ 1. DIPERMUDAHKAN

✿~ 2. MENDEKATKAN kita kepada Allah..

Jika tidak ada dua-duanya, BERMAKNA dia BUKAN JODOH kita..makanya bila tanda itu tiba, BUKANLAH MATA..jangan terus DIBUTAKAN CINTA..

>>> PERCAYALAH pada Allah..percaya SUNGGUH-SUNGGUH, jangan ragu-ragu..jangan berprasangka, YAKINLAH dengan sepenuh hati..ketentuanNYA pasti yang TERBAIK..semoga itu membuat kamu BERLAPANG DADA dengan ketentuanNYA..♥♥♥

Aladdin the Musical

2011-12-04T14:40:00.000+08:00

had a great time with my friends :))
laugh our lungs out,the casts are very friendly,warm & humble

i missed HFW!!

2011-12-02T20:47:00.002+08:00

OMG!!

I MISSED HFW(Hijab Fashion Week for short)!!!its from 27 November to 3 December!

OK i didnt register myself on http://www.lovehfw.com/ but i wanted to participate!why???

there cool themes and prizes to be won(but im not into the prize anyways)

since my blog is personal rants,i guess HFW is one of the ways that i can actually expose myself(since i dont really post myself alot here) and still keep it personal.ok the themes are

Here are the Themes for each day, so start snapping those pictures:

Day 1 -- Leaders in Hijab: what leadership roles do you have or want to try? (President, teacher, mother, Volunteer Leader, CEO etc.).

Day 2 -- Hobby/Recreation: What do you do when you have free time? (hike, sail, write, paint, etc.)

Day 3 -- Break the Rules: A stylish hijabi can look good in anything, even when she's breaking the rules! Pick a fashion/style rule you always follow, and show us how you'd break it in style! (Any style rule may be broken, except the Islamic criteria for hijab).

Day 4 -- Vacation/Destination: Where would you go, if you could go anywhere in the world? What outfits would you wear?

Day 5 -- Eid & Formal: It's Friday! Dress up! What did you wear for Eid? What do you wear to formal events/parties?

Day 6 -- Date Night: Yesterday you dressed up for you, today dress up for your man! What do you wear when going out with your (future) husband?

Day 7 -- Out with Friends: Finish off the week by hanging out with friends! Where do you usually go? What do you usually do?

cool right?!

hmm.its semi-annual event where we could be inspirational to others!!

haizzz.nvm,just wait for next year then.hopefully i have TONS of pictures of my own then ;)

mia-exams

2011-12-02T18:40:00.000+08:00

exams are coming to its end!tomorrow is my last paper and right now im slacking work.how irony is that?(well,at least to make myself feel good is bringing all my notes,but in the end i didnt even read it.just flipping it n stare blankly as it is)

most of my classmates took leave today and getting a lot of to catch up.for me, i dont feel a need to actually apply leave today because

i dont want to make my boss angry(i just dont understand him actually,sometimes his good,most of the time he just like to get on my nerves)
i dont want to waste my off days (well actually i never applied leave for my own sweet time,most of the time is for my exams)
i bet if i apply leave i will not study at home but to watch my tv series.teehee.

its not that i feel confident on doing the paper, its just this semester makes me slack so much.i dont feel like studying,revising as much as i did last semester.i guess all the energy for 2 REPORT WRITING and a PRESENTATION sucks up all the energy in me.

i feel so lazy to do my revision every time i flip open my files.so great that i spend 13456546486149849744hrs of watching movies & dramas, i only like revise for only an hour or 2.tsk tsk tsk

being slacking is one thing.

i love to procrastinate.i would like push all the revision and doing my assessment at the last minute.no,not my projects and assignments,this is my own revision that im talking about.

hopefully i can pass all my papers and go to next semester.
and i feel that this course is so long!im demoralised.i want to change to full time so i can finish by next September insyaAllah instead of June 2013.

but the thing is i have to do some emailing with the student support executive.sigh.

and i want to leave my job.as much as it is slacking and $$ comes in.it doesnt give me any satisfaction and prospect to learn more.boss has discontinued me to do the online updates.then he stopped me doing paper works, like hello?what am i going to do now?it sadden me more as he didnt includes me in his meetings and only half way through he will introduce me with our clients and vendors.he also said something in chinese which i also understand and feel dishearten.i found out some items in the new shop that dishearten me too.

i just dont feel im needed and fit in.my boss,he is a great guy.is just that when he doesnt like someone,he will say that he doesnt.i'm trying my best but it seems that everything that i do is not up to his standard and whatever nots.

i told my mom,i guess me and my boss needed each other but we dont really liking the situation.he needs somebody to do fulltime,we have been looking for people take up the job but to no avail.for me,i stayed because i needed the money to pay up my school fees and my expenses.so yeah, we are stuck for each other.

so i talked to my mom on changing to fulltime.she considering it and feels that its ok.but having to pay 2 semester in 1 go is such a pain in the pocket.

mom wants to join back the working force,with having me having 3 hours of school everyday seems that she can do it.well,hopefully im doing the right choice.i need a new job badly without having school as a barrier.

Ya Allah.yassir umuri :(

Hiatus

2011-11-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

Sorry for being hiatus lately because exams is just less than a week left.Still a lot to revise, still trying to catch up.I cant wait for it to end and relax.

Meanwhile, fond this article and i find it apparently amazing,related to my upcoming exams so do enjoy!:)

Fesyen

2011-11-20T23:51:00.002+08:00

Something to ponder :)

Angry Birds

2011-11-14T13:10:00.001+08:00

Angry Birds....

dipenuhi dengan nilai-nilai dan prinsip-prinsip sebuah gerakan Dakwah Islamiyah

1) Jihad dan Tadhiyyah (Pengorbanan)

antara ciri yang paling power pasal Angry Birds ni, sebab burung-burung yang marah tu semuanya sanggup berkorban

menyerahkan jiwa dan tubuh mereka untuk mencapai matlamat mereka iaitu menghapuskan babi-babi hijau yang suka tersengih jika masih hidup di akhir permainan

mungkin yang merah, biru dan hijau hanya sanggup mencederakan diri sendiri

tapi bagaimana dengan yang hitam dan putih?

yang hitam sanggup meletupkan dirinya sendiri!

yang putih pula?

sanggup mengorbankan anaknya!

itu bukanlah satu pengorbanan yang senang

menghantar anak yang masih dalam telur ke medan jihad

read more

.....أريده

2011-11-12T19:45:00.000+08:00

أريده يهرول إلى المساجد إذا ما سمع الآذان

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أريده يوما يأتي ليفاجئني برحلة وليست كأيّ رحلة لبيت الله الحرام

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أريده يوقظني ليلا... للقيام بين يدي الله الرّحمن

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أريده لا يضيّع الفجر ويوقظني له ويكون نعم المعين

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أريده منير الوجه بالإيمان

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أريده متمسّكا بخلق الحياء مثل حبيبي المصطفى العدنان

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أريده عند الغضب حليما وإذا غضب منّي لا نمضي يومنا إلّا ومضى معه كلّ شيء

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أريده يستحقّ قلبي الّذي سأهديه له وحده ليس قبله ولا بعده إنسان

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أريده يأتي يوما ويهمس في أذني "أحبّك يا أجمل النّساء"

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أريده رفيقا لي فى أعالي الجنان عند ربّ العرش الحنّان المنّان

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أحلم بصلاة يكون إمامها زوجي ويشاركني فيها أولادي

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اللهم أرزق بنات المسلمين أزواج صالحين

2011-11-12T19:40:00.000+08:00

أريده منير الوجه بالإيمان

Wardina,my favourite

2011-11-09T16:54:00.001+08:00

Antara ciri2 yang TAK BOLEH ADA pada lelaki yg kte nak buat suami:

- tak mampu solat 5 waktu; kalau dia tak sayang Allah yang mencipta dia, mcm mane dia nk sayang kte?

- dia berani sentuh kte; kalau dia berani sentuh2 kte sebelum nikah, tu namanya bukan dia cinta kte, tp dia menghina kte

Aduh!Jiwa Kacau...

2011-11-09T13:08:00.000+08:00

One of the best speeches!

Du'a

2011-11-09T12:29:00.003+08:00

Ya Allah, kalau dia jodoh ku, Kau permudahkanlah urusan kami, ya Allah. Kalau bukan jodohku, maka Kau tenangkanlah hati ini dengan kuasaMu, ya Tuhan.

Sabar&Ikhlas

2011-11-08T18:24:00.002+08:00

Kau ingat kisah Yusuf as & Zulaikha? Zulaikha menuduh Yusuf telah memperkosanya, padahal dia sendiri tidak tahan dengan ketampanan Yusuf as. Zulaikha memfitnah dia hingga Yusuf as dipenjara. Apakah Yusuf memberontak? Tidak! Yusuf as tahu Allah swt sedang berbicara kepadanya.

Kamu mahu tahu apa yang dikatakan Yusuf as?

Kata Yusuf as: Ya Allah, jika memang kehidupan penjara lebih bererti bagiku daripada dunia luar. Maka, aku memilih penjara tetapi dekat denganMu, daripada aku hidup bersama manusia pendusta.

... Allah sedang berbicara denganmu tentang sabar & ikhlas."

Senyum

2011-11-08T17:16:00.001+08:00

Senyum akan membuat kita 'lebih' baik..
Doa akan 'menjaga' kita agar tetap tegar...
Cinta akan mengajarkan kita erti kehidupan...
Persahabatan akan membuat kita mengerti erti kesetiaan...
Masalah akan membuat kita mengerti erti kedewasaan...
Kehilangan akan membuat kita lebih menghargai seseorang yg pernah kita sayang,
Kehidupan dunia akan menentukan siapa & bagaimana kita dikehidupan akhirat...

Cinta SMS

2011-11-08T15:35:00.000+08:00

Mak: Well, in that case Mak akan restu kalau parents Alia restu. Ali pegi la jumpa diorang.

Ali: Serius? Ali tak penah buat benda camni. Gabra nih! Lagi gabra daripada interview untuk scholarship. Ada kata-kata semangat tak?

Ayah: Jangan terkencing dalam seluar okeh?

Ali: ...

[Flashback tamat]

Abi: Ali...I don't think this is going to work out.

Ali: Saya faham. Kalau wali Alia tak restu, saya tiada hak untuk bantah. Terima kasih kerana sudi luangkan masa ngan saya. Saya...mintak diri dulu.

Alia berlinangan dengan air mata. Ali berdiri dan berjalan menuju pintu masuk.

Ali: Pak cik, mak cik...assalamualaikum.

Mak: Well, in that case Mak akan restu kalau parents Alia restu. Ali pegi la jumpa diorang.

Ali: Serius? Ali tak penah buat benda camni. Gabra nih! Lagi gabra daripada interview untuk scholarship. Ada kata-kata semangat tak?

Ayah: Jangan terkencing dalam seluar okeh?

Ali: ...

[Flashback tamat]

Abi: Ali...I don't think this is going to work out.

Ali: Saya faham. Kalau wali Alia tak restu, saya tiada hak untuk bantah. Terima kasih kerana sudi luangkan masa ngan saya. Saya...mintak diri dulu.

Alia berlinangan dengan air mata. Ali berdiri dan berjalan menuju pintu masuk.

Ali: Pak cik, mak cik...assalamualaikum.

Reading this just sooth the mind

2011-11-08T14:33:00.004+08:00

That is the Sunnah of Love. You look after the near, even if it may inconvenience the far.

You would have heard that the Prophet ṣallallāhu ‘alayhi wa sallam mended his own shoes at times. What you may not have heard was how once as he was sitting in a room with ‘Aisha raḍyAllāhu ‘anha fixing his shoes, ‘Aisha happened to look to his blessed forehead and noticed that there were beads of sweat on it. Mesmerized by the majesty of that sight she remained transfixed staring at him long enough for him to notice.

The Prophet ṣallallāhu ‘alayhi wa sallam said, “What’s the matter?” She replied, “If Abu Bukair Al-Huthali, the poet, saw you, he would know that his poem was written for you.” The Prophet ṣallallāhu ‘alayhi wa sallam asked, “What did he say?” She replied,

“Abu Bukair said that if you looked to the majesty of the moon, it twinkles and lights up the world for everybody to see.”

So the Prophet ṣallallāhu ‘alayhi wa sallam got up, walked to Aisha, kissed her between the eyes, and said,

“Wallahi ya Aisha, you are like that to me and more.”

Hello November!

2011-11-03T15:31:00.000+08:00

Well as time goes extra faster than usual, let's welcome November again *oh no*

Yes, some of us have not really achieve anything yet and to some, the don''t even accomplish their new year resolution. For me,everyday is a new day, new resolution and achievements that needed to accomplish.

So much so, November is the most packed month of the year where i have a lot of things to settle and walhamdulillah, things are clearly to be better.

Had a movie date with Tengku Adibah & Rasyidah. The movie wasn't that great.I guess Diba & Rasyie wasm't afraid so it turned out that I'm not afraid too. All in all, it was a great night. Well spent. I remembered that the last time we went out together was in April or May when i just started the current job.

Next will be my Zoo trip with my besties and to Little India to buy my punjabi dress. I hope i get leave on Friday or at least half day off because my friend is getting engage!!

On Saturday and Sunday, here will be a great wedding that I must attend. Tell you guys more after the event.

So left with 2 weeks of revision, then exams.

My last exam day will be an awesomest thing because I've booked a ticket to a Musical. Something new for me. A good new thing anyways.

Besides, I have 2 engagement/wedding cake to settle. Usually I become excited and exhausted as if I'm the one who getting engaged or wed!

I love to make people happy, that's all. Oh besides that, I'm helping a friend to make surprise for his girlfriend too!Can't wait to surprise her!

Lastly,a big project awaits me but I shall refrain myself of being too happy about it as my exams are nearby and have to really study and struggle to get great marks. Can't wait for the results too! What is this thing I'm talking about? You guys just have to wait till December :)

I don't know how to end this but I'm glad making the right choice and decision.

Hopefully I can be a better muslimah insyaAllah each day.

Ma'asalam!

Tricks of Syaitan

2011-11-03T14:07:00.000+08:00

by Nouman Ali Khan

Dua,not only when you in trouble

2011-11-03T13:52:00.002+08:00

by Yasir Qadhi :)

Rainy November

2011-11-03T13:37:00.002+08:00

Angin laut memeluk tubuhku dgn erat,
seperti mahu memujuk diri utk tidak bersedih.
namun,
awan sebagai memanggil utk menagis bersama

Must Watch/Listen before getting married.BOTH MUSLIM & MUSLIMAH

2011-11-03T12:52:00.000+08:00

by Nouman Ali Khan :)

Broken Heart

2011-10-18T12:49:00.002+08:00

But if this happens to a woman, this feeling might last for years and probably forever!
Is it because women are complicated creatures?
No, it is only because women are wonderful and sensitive creations.
For men out there, handle women with care.

Aku Tidak Melakukan Yang Sama

2011-10-14T11:40:00.002+08:00

Puisi : Aku Tidak Melakukan Yang Sama

Bila kau bilang kata cinta,

Mengapa aku kau hantar ke neraka,

Sedang cinta jalannya ke syurga,

Apakah itu retorika semata?

Kau bilang pada ku kita ukhuwah fillah,

Lalu bila masanya engkau pernah mengingatkan aku pada Allah,

Sedangkan ketika diri berdepan musibah,

Engkau tidak pernah sekali mahu berkongsi rasa susah.

Kau bilang 'aku cinta kamu kerana Allah',

Lalu mengapa masih wujud terus prasangka,

Menjarakkan lagi aku dengan kau di kala aku bermasalah,

Mengapa ada semua ini jika kau benar-benar cinta?

Sahabat,

Aku akan tetap terus memegang tanganmu ke syurga,

Walau kau biar aku jatuh ke neraka,

Kerna aku cinta kau dengan sebenar cinta,

Maka aku pasti tidak akan melakukan yang sama,

Walau ku tahu kau mungkin tidak membalas yang serupa.

~[131011]~

Afdholul Rahman CA

Bayt Bujang Beriman, Irbid

Puisi Aku Tidak Melakukan Yang Sama

2356 (Jordan)

Mimpi & Khayalan

2011-10-13T12:21:00.000+08:00

Kasihan dengan kaum wanita yang kebanyakan hidupnya tidak pernah menikmati realiti dan hanyut oleh mimpi. Ketika kecil dia dibesarkan dengan didikan yang tidak menurut kehendak Allah. Dia dibesarkan tanpa menyedari tanggungjawab dan tujuan hidup di atas muka bumi Allah SWT.

Emran Ahmad

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She said

2011-10-11T18:25:00.000+08:00

My heart just breaks into pieces as I heard the words. Its just pierce my heart, made my eyes teary and a total change of mood. It seems like she looks down on me, she just can't accept the fact that I am growing older and wiser. How I wish she would just understand and compromise this situation.Even how much I try to twist and turn it, she will still say the same thing. I feel tied up when wanted to fly. I just couldn't take it anymore. At last, the hot tears just run down to the cold cheeks, given that it is a hardern, straight face look. It doesn't even matter whether the person opposite stares at me like I am from planet Jupiter as I can't control the emotions. Yes, eventually my emotion controls my mind and my heart.

Facebook,Twitter,Flickr & All sorts of other media

2011-10-10T12:49:00.000+08:00

WHY do you post your pictures? So people can compliment you based on how "beautiful/handsome/pretty you look?" WHAT IF THE WHOLE WORLD WAS BLIND THEN WHERE WOULD YOU GET THE COMPLIMENTS? HOW WOULD PEOPLE KNOW YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL? From now on Beautify Yourself in the eyes of Allah(swt) first. And beautify Yourself with manners and fear Allah(swt)!

-Nouman Ali Khan

As I was saying

2011-10-07T17:10:00.000+08:00

i myself am a woman, so i know and completely understand the need to look good as a hijaber (especially) because dressing up and being covered from head to toe is not as easy as those who choose not to be covered. so it's like a challenge kan.
don't have to be in denial la..
everyone have that "i nak nampak lawa" moments. even guys (hehee!). so when i said "some damages has been done", i meant that, in one way or another, i had probably encouraged hijabers to think fashion and photoshoots are.. good..

i used to make statements like "who says muslim women can't dress up? who says women with hijab can't model?".
now i feel like slapping myself, because it should be "i wear the hijab, i cover myself up, because i am a muslim". i should respect the hijab for what it represents and not make it seem like its just a cloth on my head like an accessory.
the purpose of hijab is to cover our aurat and wearing it makes it obvious to everyone that we are muslim whereas dressing up, wearing make up, looking pretty basically is only for our self-satisfaction.

and in my opinion, it's not wrong to want to look good. not at all.
it's not wrong to like photoshoots or whatever self-vanity related activities.

fashion is fun to follow too, i get it, but it's making us lose focus.
for example, we go online and we look at lookbook to know what's the latest trends. we get inspired, we hurriedly head on to a shopping mall or blogshop and hang around looking for that piece of clothing we pictured. then we spend money. sometimes distracted punya pasal, solat tak khusyuk. sometimes nak sangat baju tu, sampai solat pun tinggal. the same goes to modelling.

fashion becomes an obsession. modelling becomes a passion.
beautification becomes a necessity.

muka bogel takde eyeliner pun dah rasa resah. dapat gambar photoshoot, rasa bangga sampai upload merata-rata (blog, tumblr, facebook, twitter, etc) expecting people to tell you how good you're looking. parallel to that, jadi riak, and riak is salah satu attributes yang Allah SWT hina.
*slaps myself real hard*

read more on Maria Elena's blog.

This is what i mention earlier on.so i shall not post any pictures of mine regards to of following certain trend/fashion.I just keep it to myself :)

Walla5u 3lam

Sepi

2011-10-06T02:32:00.000+08:00

Angin sepoi-sepoi bahasa
Menembusi laluan yang sunyi
Pada tika itu
Dedaun kering yang sedang berbisik-bisik
Seakan-akan bangkit bersemangat
Dan menari-nari dengan
irama hentakkan gegelang kaki
seorang penari India

Always

2011-09-29T11:22:00.000+08:00

I always wanted to create a fashion blog (or tumblr) but there's always things that hinders me doing it.

I always question myself whether I want to impress people or to make my self-esteem boost.

I always fear that people will not like my choices of clothing and thinks im a jerk.

I always think it is better for me to keep myself and pictures on my own rather than sharing to the whole world, especially getting the idea some people steals your picture for their own benefits.*sigh*

A tit for tad

2011-09-22T12:15:00.000+08:00

Hate the situation when my parents like to bring up the past. Even tho I myself has pass the line of-its-ok-to-talk-about-him-but I still feel uncomfortable to talk about it.

My parents and I was watching 3 Dara Metropolitan on Suria, one of the Malay drama shows made by Singaporeans. As we were discussing about parents don't like their son-in law thus they separate is one of the lame excuses that happen in 21st Century. Well, that's what my dad was saying. My mom said that its no an issue because it happens, maybe because he is a thief, a black magic guy or what. My mom add on with her previous experience when this guy came to my mom's house with a gold bangle. She said it was a total turn off.

Then suddenly it was quiet. I sense something was a bit off-my parents were discussing as I was surfing online-as if i can't hear or see their gestures. Just as I thought my dad open his mouth and started talking. I feel like shutting my ears and run into my room but no, I have to stay they and be professional. One thing for sure, I think I made the right choice not to continue the relationship and yes, my parents are happy with my sayings and I just knew that my parents are very highly on adat(Malay tradition) and adab(manners).

My mom can go ballistic when someone invites me to a wedding/engagement/slumber party(my aunts, friends and cousins are exceptionable) thru FB. She said that these people do not behave as if we have traditions and manners. Even tho we are modernize by having social platforms, it is still no manners to do so. If you still want to use FB, maybe you can just arrange a date to meet up everyone for that day and pass around your card. If its too hard just call. Don't try to give virtual messages that is lack of touch and emotion to it. I don't know about people it the west where they don't have cultural traditions like the East and so on, but I guess they also have some kind of code of ethics where you have to invite us verbally or by card.

p/s:the tittle doesn't make any connection to the blog post but who cares anyways, right?

To be Happy or Sad

2011-09-20T13:57:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah, this year my mum's business of selling cakes for special occasion has increase and to be exact, mostly are engagement cakes.

I, for sure, is the unofficial marketing manager, doing all the arrangements for all the order forms as well as the dates. On top of that, i seriously happy for them to help in this line (most of them is last minute resort whereby they wanted to engage the following week and quickly called me for help-some sort of like SOS thingy). Making people happy is the best experience that I would like to cherish.

Apparently, liaise with the soon-to-be-engage or soon-to-get-married is one of the most challenging task for me as I am working full-time and studying part-time. Handling this kind of things is quite hard when suddenly people just call me and ask for this and that, which sometimes I am very busy at work or school.

Not only that, the feelings and mixed emotions lies around. Sometimes I question myself, I keep helping people ordering and planing their cakes, when will it be my turn? Hard truth is like a thigh slap on the face. Till then, I myself would not know about it. It's not that I do not look for it but eventually I have stop looking as the guys are being so stupid and ignorant or some just collecting jar of hearts. I know for sure the right guy will be there for me and I surely have to look for him too. Maybe when the right time comes, after I end my diploma?Hmmm, only Allah knows best :)

Girlfriends

2011-09-18T22:01:00.025+08:00

Had a great time with my friends even though i only manage to visit 1 house.It turn out to be a slumber party where everyone sits inside my room, bring all my kuih raya in, took out all my old photo album.we laugh like hell!yeah some good and be memories too.after that, we had make up and shawl session,love it!!

yes we did fought but we grew even stronger ever since.yes i was once neglected, i think 1 or 2 years but i took the initiative to save our friendship ( or more than that actually, feeling lonely without friends is like living on a live without companions by your side, without someone to actually be by your side to share happiness and sorrowfulness).

so it sums up that even tho we are not updating each and everything that we do, we didn't have much time to spend together and certainly we didn't make conference call or night calls, certainly we are bonded much.loving every single time we meet each other :D such a bliss.

thank you fariya, hajar and amany for the day and for those who did not make it, aimaan, aidah, hakimah, i love u guys too!

now we're going to make a lot of fun on 11/11/11!!heheh :D
i have few plans in mind and hopefully it works

Selamat Hari Raya

2011-09-08T12:22:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya/Eid Mubarak everyone!

Oh god how can i forgot to wish you guys after 9th Syawal.

I still have not upload my pictures from my camera. All pictures are still in the memory card which my brothers keep on pestering me to upload it. To tell you the truth,i dont really have time to edit the pictures and such, uploading it to facebook is another horror.

So i snatch some pictures from mu cousins.

so that's the only pictures so far. i did not had time to take pictures of the food. I didn't had appetite to eat all the way till last week. Its kinda frustrating that everyone is having great day eating and enjoying good food, for me, I'd rather starve than eat. I had a very bad flu and nauseousness the night of 1st Syawal. So that explains all isn't it?

I didnt enjoy much of my raya as previously did because of my job as well as school projects. Hopefully i can finish my project faster than schedule and jalan raya with my secondary school friends :)

Next week is another last kopek week if i want to jalan raya, but i guess i'll be finishing it by this week.

I still not quite sure whether i want to go to Redang end of the month because it seems like my kakis had loose focus or had money issue. This is my problem, having kaki which could not afford to go.*sigh*

The pending of having enough money to fly as well as a holiday is another thing. I wanted to go to Egypt badly and have enough savings by Nov to buy tickets. Now all it seems so blurry as i have to clear my school bills as well waiting for a new job. It's killing and bothering me at the same time after yesterday's incident. I havent tell my mom yet or she will ask me to leave immediately.

I'm tired of changing jobs. To adapt is another thing, to introduce again and have the chitchats and finding great cliques is another.

Working full time and having school part time is harder than the other way around.*sigh*

Alas, Selamata Hari Raya :)

Let's change

2011-09-03T15:18:00.001+08:00

I admit it that this semester is a killer for me (and for the rest of our course-mate as well) because we are handling 2 surveys and reports at the same due date. It's very tiring and I'm wearing off soon. One of my course mate, Jeline, just tender yesterday because she don't see herself as productive and upgrading as she expected. Another thing is because of our assignments are crying for attention. I cant help myself but to complain every single schooling day with my group mates.

I feel like dropping this course all together.

Business Communication is a bitch. OK I think I'm being overrated because it is very useful for working purposes such as emails,reports,memos and presentations. It's only that the lecturer make us confuse every single lesson with the new/modern writing and the current template that we have been using. Maybe is just because the lecturer likes to give grandmother stories, make the lecture long winded (because now is already wk 5 and we still stuck in lecture 3 -_-") and uninteresting.

For example, yesterday's lesson was all about KISS- keep is short and sweet. Sweetness is not to offend the readers/clients as well as giving negative influence. Sometimes if you can't substitute the negative words, just drop the word itself. For instance, a sentence such as : You don't make any sense. Paraphrased : Please make your point/s clearer.

Our lecturer did remind us not to use Please kindly, in emails as it seems rude and showing that the person is not kind. Another point, we tend to make this mistakes over and over again. Thank you Best Regards.FYI thank you=regards. Do not indicate Warmest Regards when you actually not that close with that person. How can you even measure the warmness of that person? So just drop it and put Regards or Best Regards without the thank you. It doesn't imply rudeness at all.

My point is that we have been using it all along for so long that we didn't realise the mistakes that we've been using.

Common mistakes like appreciate it or It would be appreciated, as appreciate is a transitive verb. It means that you need to include an object before/ after the word 'appreciate'. Please to be inform that you have just won the luck draw, just drop that as it doesn't give any concrete value after all but most of us feels that it's polite to put 'that' in the sentence. It is not wrong but you are using more words than needed.

OK, enough babbling. I just want to get over with it badly and go for a holiday. That's all. Haha!

Happy Birthday Singapore

2011-08-11T01:16:00.000+08:00

First Cut: Singapore Timelapse and National Day Parade 2011 Fireworks from Repro on Vimeo.

Happy Birthday Singapore!
As much as i love to watch the fireworks, it still hurts to think about my tax money been 'burnt' in a few seconds.

Quran By Heart

2011-08-06T16:11:00.001+08:00

a must watch :')

Dua for Break fast.

2011-08-02T12:53:00.000+08:00

For Iftar, make supplication:
ذَهَبَ الظَّمَأُ، وَابْتَلَّتِ الْعُرُوقُ، وَثَبَتَ الْأَجْرُ إِنْ شَاءَ اللَّهُ تَعَالَى
(The thirst has gone, the arteries are moist, and the reward is set, Allaah willing)

‎[Sunan Aboo Daawood, Vol. 2, Number 2350; al – Baihaqee, 4/239; al – Hakakim, 1/422; Ibn Sunnee, an – Nasaa’ee in Amalul – Yawm, 269; Daraqutnee, who declared its isnaad to be Hasan, and it is as he said (as quoted in ‘Fasting in Ramadaan’, p. 62, by Sheikh Saleem al – Hilaalee and ‘Alee ‘Abdul Hameed, al – Hidaayah Publishers, 1999); Graded Hasan by Sheikh al – Albaanee in Saheeh Sunan Aboo Daawood, Vol. 2, Number 2066 (as quoted in ‘Islamic Studies Book 3’, p. 198) and in Irwaa al – Ghaleel, Number 920 (as quoted in ‘Ramadaan: Rules and Related Issues’, p. 15, by Hafiz Salah – ud – Din Yusuf, Darussalam publishers). Also Refer to the ‘Fortress of a Muslim’

As for the Dua:
اللهم لك صمت، وعلى رزقك أفطرت، اللهم تقبل مني إنك أنت السميع العليم
(O Allaah! For You I have observed fasting and with Your provisions do I break my fasting)

[It is rated as Da’eef (weak) by Sheikh al – Albaanee in Irwaa al – Ghaleel, Vol. 4, Number 919; as quoted in ‘Islamic Studies Book 3’, p. 198, by Dr. Abu Ameenah Bilal Philips, IIPH publishers, 2005]

Ramadhan Kareem and Happy Fasting :)

inspiring

2011-07-25T02:02:00.000+08:00

Transition

2011-07-20T15:30:00.000+08:00

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Quranic Verses of the Day

2011-07-20T15:00:00.002+08:00

“Dia lah yang telah mengutus RasulNya (Muhammad s.a.w) dengan membawa hidayah petunjuk dan ugama yang benar (ugama Islam), supaya Ia memenangkannya dan meninggikannya atas segala ugama yang lain, walaupun orang-orang musyrik tidak menyukainya. Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Mahukah Aku tunjukkan sesuatu perniagaan yang boleh menyelamatkan kamu dari azab seksa yang tidak terperi sakitnya? Iaitu, kamu beriman kepada Allah dan rasulNya, serta kamu berjuang membela dan menegakkan ugama Allah dengan harta benda dan diri kamu; yang demikian itulah yang lebih baik bagi kamu, jika kamu hendak mengetahui (hakikat yang sebenarnya). (Dengan itu) Allah akan mengampunkan dosa-dosa kamu, dan memasukkan kamu ke dalam taman-taman yang mengalir di bawahnya beberapa sungai, serta ditempatkan kamu di tempat-tempat tinggal yang baik dalam Syurga ‘Adn. Itulah kemenangan yang besar. Dan ada lagi limpah kurnia yang kamu sukai, iaitu pertolongan dari Allah dan kemenangan yang cepat (masa berlakunya). Dan sampaikanlah berita yang mengembirakan itu kepada orang-orang yang beriman.” Surah As-Sof ayat 9-13

Brother&Sister

2011-07-19T13:54:00.001+08:00

I love my brother. His name is Muhammad Isamuddin. The Family calls him as Uddin while friends regard him as Isam (the pronunciation will be i zam) or Sam. He is younger than me by 2 years and 8 months.

He's in year 3 Sem 1 in Temasek Polytechnic major in Interactive Media and Informatics. Something like Harry Potter's magic effects. Minor in web designing and photography.

I love his so much because he is the closest person that i have.

We like to share so many things and laugh about stupid things. We used to hang out together and stay up all night just to talk to each other but as time passed by, we have our own commitments and we didnt see each other much.

The day before yesterday night, we had sharing session. He laugh his lungs out about it.

This morning, i manage to catch him for breakfast and i was complaining about the 2nd sem and the projects that we gonna handle. He said just practice even though i dont like it. He said, eventually things will work out well and dont do last minute projects. I'm not the kind of person who likes to delay but yes, procrastinating for a working adult is a total no-no.

Thank bro for the advice.Love you lots!

Love,

Your Sister :)

my handsome brother :))

New Semester

2011-07-19T13:11:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah i've started Sem 2 yesterday and the fact that i had to digest so much information on this semester is truly scares my heart out. Overall alhamdulillah, most of the stats topics are familiar to me as the A levels and also previous jobscope. On the hind side, I dont like repetition on things that bring me hurtful memories especially doing A levels and my previous job.

A levels is because i had to cramp so much information and syllabus to finish and master less than 2 years. I bet geniuses like the ones who sitting and studying in JCs are fine with that concept.

The previous job, its a survey company and I was in a team serving Changi Airport Group. It's insane i tell you. The time lines, the questionaires and the reporting is tedious.

So mostly it will be a combo for me, both in one module. Yes there is a plus point but i just dont feel like doing it.

I went crazy yesterday after seeing 3 module notes which is thick as a textbook and i beginning to wonder, why i am doing this to myself. I can just go to degree module straight away but i choose to go for diploma and now, i have to face repetitions.

Is not that i do not like repetitions, its good. The only thing is that the fundamentals and formulas that i had been holding on will not included or the lecturers will teach the long-winded and more steps. Well, in A levels we are trained to do shortcuts and use our super calculators to do all the graphs and so on.

Moving on, Thursday nights will be my financial accounts :) looking forward to it and Friday nights will be my Business Comm.

Its kinda a killer coz it involves the command of English and to tell you the truth, my English is not as good as it seems. Reading books did not really solve my English proficiency problems. Maybe its because my basic English (when I was in elementary school, my teacher didnt teach me well and i had various teachers teaching for that year, so its kinda hard for me to learn basics) such as grammar, verbs and spellings errors are one of my main reasons that pulls my grades down.

Hopefully i can catch up or learn back my basics doing grammar assessments.maybe i should borrow my primary 3 brother's assessment book.

Other than that, new class room, some new faces while some are the familiar faces around. Some did not return, such as my previous group lady called Joan. She's a PRC but she didnt want to continue as it was too long for her. Maybe its money wise as well.

The bustop was overcrowded with students and i guess next week will be more as the uniSim part time students will kick start next week.gd luck to us!wish that i have a car and i'll drive home.hah!

ok until next time :)

colourful notes that my stats lecturer provides us with.i started to get headaches.

can you see how thick these 3 lecture notes are?i can't seem to fit them in my current files,have to buy a new one i guess

Ramadhan

2011-07-18T00:48:00.002+08:00

Ramadhan

2011-07-18T00:32:00.001+08:00

Bismillah

This year, i felt a sense of difference in myself.

I felt calmer and serenity. Maybe because I've leave the world that I wasn't sure of and I do not want to be there anymore as it brings more harm than good.

Alhamdulillah, we are few days to Ramadhan and I've pray to Allah to give me strength to go through this Ramadhan with his help and being in the best of Iman.

I hope that it will bring the best in me and strong to face all circumstances that I have to go through during school nights and work. Insya Allah.

I went to Usrah again for this month and its a part of preparing to enter the holy month of Ramadhan and hopefully I can embrace it gratefully.

So the topic is that to become a better muslim on the fasting month. We always gone through it every single year and always been in same pace. Now, this year we have to upgrade ourselves from being the normal muslims who just feel thirst and hunger to more than that which is Taqwa.

Sahih International

O you who have believed, decreed upon you is fasting as it was decreed upon those before you that you may become righteous -

Surah Al Baqarah 2:183

So to achieve taqwa, we have to make sure that we are prepared to face Ramadhan by doing some fasting like on Mondays and Thursdays, the mid month and so on. We also can train ourselves to wake up before fajr to do some prayers, seeking help to Allah and communicate to him. He, of course listen to all our prayers. Reading Quran is also one of the things that we need to take care of.

So when we reached Ramadhan, we don't feel that we have to do it or we feel oblige to do so as we have train ourselves to be one.

I take this Ramdhan as a washing machine to cleanse my soul as well as a school to train a to become better muslimah.

And I always praise to Allah that I found good friends and Usrah that can make me go back to His path. Alhamdulillah.

A saying said that if we want a good husband, we have to be good ourselves :)

The Difference

2011-07-08T14:45:00.000+08:00

Salam Alaik

Yesterday, I was browsing around some of the Vlogs and i bumped into this one muslimah from US. She is the sweetest lady I've ever seen and the knowledge of Islam is masyaAllah, brilliant.FYI, she's a convert*.

So here I am watching here Vlog and I couldn't help myself to think that sometimes converts are way better than us the born-Muslims. I've used to worked under The Muslim Converts in Singapore or we called in Darul Arqam and to my surprise their ilm is more than mine,as a born-Muslims AND FULL-TIME MADRASAH student with 'aliah. I am ashamed of myself as well as they behave better than me and the knowledge-they can have like a computer in their head with having different mazahib's opinions in their head o.O, well I only memorise for the sake of exams because there is so many opinions on everything(fiqh ibadah/muamalat)-i think i need to do some reflection of myself as well.

I went to some religious classes and asked around some buddies. I immediately got the answer from an ustaz that doing a speech. He was having a speech about history of Rasullullah Sallallahualaihiwasallam and there was a man asking why the people of Madinah embrace Islam easily without hassle?The people of Madinah replied that they were told that a man named Muhammad is the last messenger of Allah will come and teach them the religion of Islam. They also replied that their lives were meaningless and too much of hatred and wars between them so they wanted a change, a better and meaningful life.

That's where it hit me. They had been in a life that is so hard and meaningless and they wanted to have something to hold on, the divine power which can give them PEACE.

Same goes to the non Muslims who convert. They knew how life was without a God and rules and regulations, meaningless and do not know the purpose of life. So they wanted something that can make them assure, a better person. Like Cat Stevens or Yusuf Islam on how he embrace Islam. Something like that.

So, its kind of sad when I look around in Singapore where majority of Malay community is a Muslim but they never practice what they are born to be. Most malay girls don't wear hijabs and most houses don't have an islamic value or don't even pray compared to the non-muslims who converts, learns about the beauty of Islam and practice without having parents or relatives to share with. I think because they choose to be better person and knew that being derailed is an explicit danger compared to the born-muslims.

Alhamdulillah that I am raised in a good environment Muslim family but i think that we need to change the mindsets of the community itself. Make the string Muslims and not some ghettos people and families and branding the bad name of Malays & Muslims.

The sad truth.

*i used convert but some people use the word revert which is a better and appropriate word. All in all, for me it doesn't make any difference.not that i'm double standard between converts and born-muslims.is just to differentiate and having a better understanding in this post.Wallahu A'lam

2

2011-07-05T10:12:00.000+08:00

I am happy!

I am happy to enjoy 22 years in life with great people.

Getting to the Semester 2.

and having my first 2 :)

alhamdulillah.

i'm speechless.thank you so much!:)

hijab problem

2011-07-02T19:26:00.000+08:00

with all the controversy about hijabis, i want to talk more on the fashion of hijabi itself.

i want to talk about the hijab itself and not the fashionable clothing that they are wearing.i think most of you should know about covering your body and dress modestly.

Hijab in Wikipedia means curtain or cover (noun).

Most Islamic legal systems define this type of modest dressing as covering everything except the face and hands in public.

According to Islamic scholarship, hijab is given the wider meaning of modesty, privacy, and morality; the words for a headscarf or veil used in the Qur'an arekhimār (خمار) and Jilbaab(جلباب), not hijab. Still another definition is metaphysical, where al-hijab refers to "the veil which separates man or the world from God."

So what if that a lady wears something that is very bold or too fashionable on their head as a headgear?

and is it not defeats the purpose of wearing a hijab but you wearing it boldly or fashionable?

I am too a lady and loves fashion, nice and beautiful things. I understand all those needs but can we say that we have strict rules and regulations on our attire.

I am not an ustazah but at least spread the news on things that is already haram in Islam as hijabi.

do remember, wearing a hijab is not to attract people to look at you but wear it modestly and respectfully. insyaAllah biiznillah everything will be better :)

2011-06-30T19:00:00.001+08:00

الحب الصادق :

تعصي الإله وأنت تظهر حبه ... هذا محال في القياس بديـع
لو كان حبك صادقا لأطعتـه ... إن المحب لمن يحب مطيـع
في كل يوم يبتديك بنعمــة ... منه وأنت لشكر ذلك مضيع

Dear You

2011-06-29T02:05:00.002+08:00

Thank you and Alhamdulillah, everything went smoothly and we were again the same as we used to the last 2 years. Hopefully we will be better and matured people and i hope that we learned something from that incident as well.

Dear you,
whoever you are,
where ever you live,
what ever your background it is,
i cant wait to find you,
i cant wait to meet you,
i cant wait the arrangements that made for us.

Dear you,
InsyaAllah i'll love you,
as much as i love myself,
as much as you love Allah,
as much as whatever it will takes to lead us to Jannah.

Dear you,
i've been longing for you,
i've been searching,
but only Allah knows best.

Dear you,
i hope you feel the same way too :)

2nd Semester

2011-06-27T16:52:00.000+08:00

Today is the second half of the year and i just can't believe i've achieve so many thing in my life :D

Living in the world of super fast, i wonder whether moving to other country in villages will help to slow us down.

the things that i wanted to achieve this year basically get back to school-a diploma.

i enrolled and get my lecture notes and i can't believe it myself that i made it to 2nd semester.wohoo!kudos!

other than that, changing to a new job that gives me time to go to school and such. I wanted a non stressful work and i've got it :)

and i also made my way to a solo trip with my friends at Kay Elle.ok, its not a big deal but it is to me cause my parents let me go for a trip for the first time :)

so the second half of the year is that i wanted to grab driving license but i stopped myself because i wanted to go for holidays which requires $$.maybe next year after the big trip and set aside my school fees and insyaAllah i'll be driving on Eid next year.

another thing is that making September holiday happen. Redang+ Snorkeling. I've told my parents but they seem not happy because i've spend too much time with my friends and not having holidays with them -_-"

and also planning to have a bigger holidays on January!exactly on my birthday.
hopefully my parents will let me and i have enough budget to do so.

and my parents have so many ideas to go for holidays together as a family and im trapped between 2.
maybe my parents are jealous that i've planned so many things and wanting to go so many places in the world.

hehe.

second half of 2011, here i come

Selamat Bertunang

2011-06-27T13:58:00.002+08:00

To my long lost contact friend, selamat bertunang with your bf.

I don't really know whether you will read this post but here goes.

Truth be told that i miss you. Truth be told that i'm lying.

I'm happy for you in whatever you doing now. The thing is we've been best friends since secondary school and yes i did screw up because of someone. I don't really understand it but yeah, its my fault. I did stupid things and did make someone upset and its like a karma, it hit me back, hard. I know that i was in a very sticky situation and i should have told you the truth but i didn't. And yes i was very frustrated and called you the s word here and you cant take it thus you blew up. Well, if you had sense up the heat, why wouldn't you tell me? To inform me about her?

And yes it ended pretty bad and we're not friends anymore in Facebook. I'm fine with that too.

But the thing is, all those years that we had just gone to waste because of one little thing that you can't even forgive me. Well, i hope that God will open your heart and forgive me. And that doesn't mean that forgiving me, we will be back together as we were. No, i didn't ask for that at all. The only thing that i ask for is to forgive me. FYI, i don't really wish to get together as we used to either.

It's been 2 years since the fight and i don't feel angry anymore. We were us, being naive, gullible and temper. I just wish that you could forgive me. I'm sorry.

And i'm happy for you that you make a point that things are better and having your love ones, getting engage.

I'll pray for your happiness and success in life and hereafter.

gLee

2011-06-26T17:12:00.001+08:00

Glee season 1 & 2 is the best show that i have ever watched!

i love the cast, the story line and the most importantly is that its realistic.

compared high school musical and glee, definitely glee won my heart.

there's so many things that they discuss in this show such as labels, looking for identity, love and believe in yourself.

i cried as i watched most of the episodes.

the more that i watched, the more that i wanted to go back to school and be a student again in high school.
maybe i can be a teacher like mr. shue but the thing is that singapore's education system s totally different from the US.so i guess i'll not be a teacher unless they change the way they teach the students.

or maybe im gonna change my career again :p
ok, i'll elaborate more on other post about that.

maybe being a CCPE is ok for me because i love school environments and i get to plan on the trips!yuo know how much love planning and organizing an event.but sometimes i do feel that people forget and always waiting for my call.i mean, i need to pass the baton at times because im busy and tired at the same time.everybody have their own commitments but why the hell i can commit to such things?hmmm

ok till then
xoxo
:D

Tied

2011-06-23T22:00:00.029+08:00

Some of my girlfriends had sensed my extreme stress on marriage. I don't know why but i need to loosen up.
Thanks girlfriends who i had spent time with discussing on this issue.

Peer pressure is the main thing and Facebook is my enemy from now on. I can't stop myself to click of my friends or friend's friend wedding/engagement and honeymoon pictures. The sad part is that some of them who never knew each other in school can even get together(my second cousin with my classmate, can you believe it). The other thing is my parents. I'm the eldest only daughter and the pressure is so intense that i feel that my head is going to detach from my body.

I guess the issue is not about you really want to get married and tied to someone but sense of belonging to someone. The truth is i feel lonely, that's all. Even if i was surrounded my beautiful friends, i will still feel lonely. You know why? because i felt that there's nobody ask how's my day like, what kind of hell that i had at work, what are my goals and aspirations. I'm falling apart.

Now, the question is, how am I going to get over with this?
Its easy, having to focus on something else like my studies, travelling, do all kind if sports and outing with my family.
Surely, it will get me better.
I have to clear my head off.
As what Adibah told me, if its the right time the right guy will come.
So until then, i have to prepare myself and be the best that i can be :)

Exam Results

2011-06-23T14:00:00.001+08:00

Exams result are out!!
Alhamdulillah :)

I've got B+ for Managing People and Organisation as well as Math and C for my English.

I know i didn't do well for my English for Business because I didn't revise until the last minute which i flip through my past year papers and get the hang of the format and i really wrote crap for the 2 essays and playing around with my MCQ's choice of answers :p alhamdulillah.

I was aiming an A for Math but i guess too much careless mistakes or short cuts that i made :p

So 2nd semester, bring it on baby!
Business Comm, Financial Accounting & Business Stats :DD

All of the subjects are foreign to me but hopefully Stats will be the same as what i've learned in A level years :)

2 more years to graduation and i can't wait to celebrate :)

oh,i've made a promise to my dear friends that i'll buy them the graduation bear for them :)

the last swing

2011-06-23T13:28:00.000+08:00

My day 2 in KL.

We are all set and ready to go. I was a little bit reluctant that i had to bring my bag around because its huge and heavy. Luckily Hadi was around to carry for me :)

Went Petaling St, Central Market, Pavilion and Times Square.

I can go crazy at Central Market because of its art&crafts around. If i have extra money, i'll probably buy the kayu ukiran so i can hang up on the wall. I only bought table runners for my mom and some key chains for my brothers. Oh and we went to fish spa and ended up laughing and screaming because its ticklish.

Pavilion is extremely huge mall but we only went there for prayers, looking at DC shop with loads of superman and batman figurines and t-shirts and most importantly, SNO!!the best drink that i had, thanks to Hajar for recommending it to all of us :)

i love Batman & Joker :D

my favourite superhero <3

Shopped at Times Square and i bid farewell to my lovely friends. then i was alone at 1030pm at Starbucks and it felt sucky because the people there were creepy. So i beeped my cousin and he came straight away :) thanks abg. and thanks to the Starbucks wifi which is great, i managed to tweet and whatsapp.

I hate to say but i did last minute booking and had to sit in the two passenger sit and i was sitting at the window side. There's few makciks that acted like they were teenagers that makes me feels so disgusted. Then came the trio guys and one of them had to sit beside me. I was too tired that i just slept all the way. Then the guy beside me wakes me up and i glance at my watch, it was 3am. I thought it was a break but we already at the immigration. The guy besides me kept on saying that it was a bizarre and asked his friends to calculate how fast that the driver drove. -_-"

I didnt expect that fast and worried on what transportation should i take since i had low cash in SGD :p

When in Malaysia immigration, few passengers held up the journey because they kinda lost the half white paper so as a result we are a little bit delayed. When we reached Singapore immigration, some of the passengers caught up because they didnt filled up the white card (i suppose they aren't singaporeans) and the driver got fed up and leave him behind. We'll we did waited for him for 30mins ok.

So I reached lavender, catch a cab and straight home.to my surprise it was latched.luckily my brother had not sleep and they enjoy some of the foods that i bought earlier, told a little bit stories washed up and sleep. woke you at 945am and im ready to work.

Overall, it was fantastic and i really love spending time together with my friends and family :)

Surely, i'll drop by there but not any time soon because im planning on other things and places to visit

a come back

2011-06-21T17:13:00.000+08:00

PART 2

Sorry guys for keep you waiting.

Ok where shall i start?

Ouh yeah, my cousin picked me up from Imbi Station and head to the home and met my cuttie cousin's son Rayyan

isn't he cute?

so my initial plan was to go out for breakfast with the whole family but abg Shawal had to go to work leaving us in the house.so i played around and chat a little with my cousin's wife.She's very friendly and you know what?I just got to know that #noraelena is the book that i owned and Seth Tan is Aaron Aziz.ok, im so not updated but heyy i liked that story but its just not on par to reality.

after having breakfast like orang Malaysia, my cousin brings me to the Angry Bird roadshow and at the same time its kinda like they wanted to break a record in Guinness World Record. I tried something fun too. A human catapult. It wasn't that high but it was damn scary when it goes down.I feel like my soul was left in the skies.

I was suppose to meet up my another cousin but she didn't replied me until i was at the Angry Bird roadshow and she asked me to hurry up to Midvalley which i am suppose to meet my girls there at 2pm. Quite a pain as i do not have her number and had to communicate with her using BBM which i have to switch on my GPRS.im kinda scared of the bill, hopefully it is not going to shoot of the roof.

So i had to decline despite she was begging me to meet her cause i know it means alot to her. Said farewell to my cousin and i went to meet my friends. To my surprise Madiha and Hidayah were joining us as well. It was a joy seriously, to meet up with my old friends :)

Had an extreme great day at gigantic Midvalley with the bus rides that looks exactly like Singapore's bus because they using touch & go. Had great lunch at Chili's which was our first time for all of us. The serving was huge and i had to say i cant finish all of it.

So as always, i need to go to the bookshop and find some good books which is why i bought 4 books in total. Ok i was suppose to buy another but i think i have to finish my 4 books and another 3 more pending books to read at home :P So i bought Aku terima nikahnya trilogy from Ustaz Hasrizal.He is not a love doctor or what but he's words really knock some sense to the readers. He asked us to be realistic and not some fairytale stories about love and things like that. Another one more book is one of my favourite; the wedding girl. Well i thought it would be like the shoppaholic ties a knot but to my surprise it didn't turn out that way. And it turn out with a nice twist and i loved love stories :)

OK, back to the journal. Went back to the University and met my other girls. Unwind myself for a little bit and set to Danau or Uptown for some.Its like a nightmarket but a little bit different environment. Grabbed a lovely pink shawl and a blouse as i wanted with a good price. Oh did i tell you that an international student rent out his car but at its worst condition? The handle on the left door is missing, no student sticker, the signal lights were not flickering. How worse it can be?Anyways, had Old Town cincau and soya with toast.

It was really scary because its like against the law and having me there was already against the law :p

so we prayed so hard that we don't get screwed up and we didnt!

After we sent of Hidayah since she was staying at someones dorm, we the 4 of us sat at celpad and talked about all the crap that we had with the car and the owner. Pakcik guard pon making his rounds and asked questions but he didnt said that we should not be there or what so ever. We had fun until this guy keep on messaging, kinda creepy.

The morning dew just sets in and felt the coldness to the bones, sent Madihah back and i just wanna pop by to Farya's room when suddenly one of her roommates was like "did you smell anything?its so strong?" she's totally freaked me out and naive to top it up.i thought that such places would not have this kinda things happen around.my body was aching and i cant make myself not to sleep until 3.had a really great talk with farah and dila that night but i was too tired.so sorry babes.

i think my blog had exceed the limits.

i'll continue this soon :)

till then, i miss you so muchh

The SOLO Trip

2011-06-15T23:51:00.002+08:00

To some, making my way to Kuala Lumpur doesn't seem to be a big deal but to me it is because it was first ever solo trip. That's right, I made my way all alone to Kuala Lumpur despite asking few friends to join my short getaway. OK, elaborate the first day experience on this post.

10th June 2011

As usual, my day was pretty fine at work but I just can't wait to reach home and do last minute preparation, checking on items and spend my last few days with my love ones.

Made my way to Lavender Mrt Station to take the coach to KL and i made it on time. Quite scared because i never took train at 11pm and asked the mrt guy whether there is any train service available. Then there was a "crazy" guy talking very loudly about Singapore will sink soon, truck by tsunami after Japan's hit, world's coming to an end and about Jesus. Very disturbing scene to the normal Singaporeans as they always treat this time of people as crazy people and they will like look at him like one kind.

Upon reaching, I bought some snacks from 7-11 and get myself on board. When all the Filipinos, Thais and Singaporeans making a fuss on the number seats, I just watch them and settling myself by smsing and tweeting my beautiful fellow friends. Suddenly there was an unknown number calling. I was like, who would call me in the middle of the night?But i just picked it up.
He: Hello. Hafizah Binte Abd Wahab?
Me:Yes?
He:You booked a ticket to KL right?
Me:Yes.
He:Where are you?(I saw him talking on the phone outside the bus)
Me:I'm on the bus already.
He:(the guy turned and i waved frantically)oh, you never collect your ticket.
Me:ouh really?hehe.

So the uncle board the coach and hand over the ticket to me.awww.

I slept soundly, I didn't even went for my toilet break at Yong Peng. The thing is that I'm truly scared that no one looked after my back and the bus will leave me. Reached KL around 545am and saw this Masjid so white. I don't really know the name but i was thinking that i can just pray there but i didn't. The first thing i did was smsing my mom than my cousin to pick me up at Times Square.

While waiting for him, i thought of going to perform my prayers so i went to the 7-11 and asked the store keeper. The lady who attended me gave the directions and it was complicated. I said thanks and walked away, thinking of going to the mosque that i saw previously but i couldn't remember the directions. I don't have a choice but to follow the directions that the lady gave me.

When i reached level 3A, the only thing i saw were 7-11 HQ and 2 strange looking doors. No indications to the surau. As i was a bout to "abort my mission" there's this one security guard came out from the lift and looking at me in a weird way.
He:nak ke mane?cari apa?(where are you going?what are you looking for?)
Me:Surau(a prayer room).
He:Ouh surau kat sini(oh, its here), *he showed me the way by pushing one of the doors*
He:tak pernah datang sini ke?(you had never come here before?)
Me:tak.ouh kat sini.(no.oh its here)
He:dari mana?(where are you from)
Me:seram jugak eh tempat ni.(this place looks scary uh)
He:dari mana?(where are you from)
Me:kampung(village)*walks away from him*
He:Nak kemana tu?(where are you going?)
Me:Nak pegi angkat wuduk.(i want to take my abolution)
He:Nak kemana tu?(where are you going?), kat sini (its here) tak pernah datang sini ke?(you had never come here before?)
Me:tak.

Then he showed me the toilet and i went in. The most important thing came to my mind was, what the hell was i thinking?The place looks as creepy as hell, that guy's face was creepy and keep on asking creepy questions. I put my bag to push the door trying to calm myself. Then went to the cubicle for a while then came back to the door and put my bag there. Took out my toiletries and was about to brush my teeth when the security guy pushed the door.

I pushed it back coz i was so scared. He pushed again n i gave him chance. He said whether i still remember how to go to the prayer room and i gave him a straight face yes. I was so scared that i felt numb, i felt that i cant cry because i was too scared. I try to buy time and stretch on what ever i was going to do. I packed my bag again at 640am and pull all the courage and braveness, stepped out from the toilet looked left and right. Walked quickly to the prayer room and to find out that the qiblah is opposite the door. So what i did is that i put my bag to the door and prayed nearer to the door. Quickly finished up everything and go out from the building.*pheww*

I went back to 7-11 to buy caramel machiato and start up the conversation again. I told them it was a scary place. The guy said that the place is not regularly used for prayer :S he asked whether im from Singapore and I had to admit it to him. Both of them said that i should be careful and i was like rolls eyes, i've just encounter it just now. I then said thanks and bid farewell.

I cant forgive myself if anything happen to me on the faithful day.
I cant believe that i was as brave as that.
Im still quite shock on that incident.

After that incident, i waited for my cousin to fetch me.
You can browse my fb page for the pictures :)

i shall continue about my trip soon :))
xoxo

The Best Trip Ever!

2011-06-14T00:03:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah, I am back in Singapore :)

I enjoyed myself on my weekend getaway. I shall tell you guys the whole journey but not tonight coz im too tired :(

Guess another day will be fine right :)

Kuala Lumpur, the heart of Malaysia is a wonder and he best thing that ever happen.

I love every single bit of it :))

A little timid

2011-06-10T18:12:00.001+08:00

Seriously after what they had said and i still don't have any return tickets, I started to panic.

I started panic when I saw there's no more ticket on KTM online site. I wanted to take KTM badly coz they will stop operating on 1st July :(

Another thing is that most of the buses are booked and left with the very expensive ones and the timing is at 8 in the morning :(

Another panic moments is when I think what will ever happen to me there AND the most importantly I'll be arriving wee hours in the morning. Paling2 aku dok surau jelah sampai dah subuh and wait for my cousin to fetch me. Times square is a place where for rich people to stay and shop. I am really not familiar with the place at all. Besides its been ages since I went there and I forgot to buy KL map.damn.at least i feel safer with a map rather than walking in wrong alleys.

Enough talking ok

Insya Allahu khairan.

Kalau nak buat keje giler,baik gile terus kan.

Live dangerously is my new motto.

Kamikaze much.

I'll update on this blog soon.

Please do read this post if you are interested and please do give a feedback =))

Thank you

2011-06-09T12:51:00.000+08:00

I've realize that i have so readers from all over the world.

Thank you guys for reading my oh so boring blog. Actually there's nothing interesting yet because i try to make something beneficial from my blog, something that you and i can share about.

Currently my blog is full of personal stuffs.

Hopefully I can come out with a topic for you guys to be inspired and interested to read as well :))

Thank you for the support.

You know you love me
XOXO
Hafizah from Singapore

Had a great start

2011-06-08T17:43:00.000+08:00

I started of better today and I learned so many things about studio photography. i cant really explain the experience but i really love it. the effects and getting the hold of everything.next week will be another studio shoot again.my boss says that he allows me and my friends to do some shots at $40 per hour rental of studio.wohoo!

cant wait to get my skills up. and to get a camera as well, amateur dslr camera that is :))

Counting days

2011-06-08T16:15:00.000+08:00

Solo trip to KL in few days time!!im so excited!

ok, it sounded like no big deal because its just KL, like people do that all the time but for me it is because its my own solo trip there without my parents and friends (only the part where i stay and go shopping with my friends,but to and for KL alone). Im going to do backpacker style. Cant wait!

Nervous?Not a little bit. Only that i have to check all my items, put my money on separate compartments and make sure the people that I'm gonna meet will be there.

I make my own rules and making my own decisions.

People can say whatever that they want but the thing is, by the end of the day, I will enjoy it!

Did some packings, not fully packed yet. Planned some clothes to wear, cameras, toiletries and so on. I dont know whether to bring my Gingy or not :p

I'll give you guys the itinerary on what I am going to do and where's the hotspot that I'm gonna visit :D

Dan kembalinya saya di alam siber

2011-06-06T13:33:00.000+08:00

(This post is a special, I'll converse in Malay Language through out this post)
Alhamdulillah, selesai sudah peperiksaan.

Nak cerita dgn teliti atau secara keseluruhannya?

Sesungguhnya saya telah mengulangkaji lebih awal untuk kesemua modules yang saya ambil. Cuma saya tak mengulangkaji mata pelajaran English for Business kerana saya tidak begitu tahu apa yang harus di ulangkaji untuk matapelajaran itu selain menganalisa dan juga memplajari struktur penulisan tertentu.

Alhamdulillah, dengan segala panduan dan tips yg diberi oleh pensyarah telah saya teliti dan mempalajari dengan baik, sesemua yang saya pelajari telah pun membuahkan hasil kerana kertas peperiksaan tampak lebih senang.

Pengumuman markah peperiksaan pada 20 Jun.Sungguh menggerunkan. Ia adalah penentuan bagi saya untuk mara ke semester yang seterusnya.

Selepas peperiksaan, saya bertemu dgn rakan2 dari Wak Tanjung. Sungguh lama kita tidak bertemu. Terima kasih Fatimah Zahra, Amirah Raihana dan Nur Zarifah kerana sudi meluangkan masa bersama :)

Setibanya di rumah, kalang kabut dibuat nya kerana saya harus siapkan pakaian untuk qiamullail di Masjid Kampung Siglap. Oh terlupa, saya berkerje pada hari Sabtu dan sudah tentu selepas kerja saya bergegas ke MKS kerna tempat MKS dan tempat kerja terlalu dekat.

dan Alhamdulillah saya begitu suka dgn segala yg di isi pada malam/hari itu. Sesungguhnya saya rindu susasana Islami seperti di Madrasah dahulu dan alhamdulillah, saya dapat ke majlis ilmu sekali lagi tanpa paksaan tetapi kerelaan dan kemahuan diri sendiri:)

sekarang,saya harus menyiapkan diri untuk kebereangkataan saya ke Kuala Lumpur untuk menziarahi kawan2 saya di UIA dan berjalan2 menghilangkan stress :)

Minggu hadapan saya akan menyertai perkemahaan APEX.bukan,saya bukan peserta tetapi angota yg akan menjayakan perkemahan itu.

Wallahu A'lam.

p/s:masih ampuh tak pergunaan Bahasa Melayu saya?

Let your hair down

2011-06-06T00:10:00.000+08:00

Let your hair down,
gently,
nicely

Let the wind blows your hair gently,
Carelessly,
Freely

I'm ready for 2nd Sem baby!
Bring it on :)
Business Comm, Financial Accounting & Business Stats!Wohoooo!Helluva funn!

Exams

2011-05-31T18:29:00.000+08:00

2011 1st sem exam

Bismillah!

yessaaaa!

2011-05-25T01:00:00.001+08:00

i've checked my results for CA(both group & individual) Alhamdulillah i've receive good grades.

now exams just 1 week away.i cant be too comfy with my results but i just wanna treat myself coz i scored good grades.*gelek gelek*

SIM CA Results

so what im doing right now is surf internet like there's no tomorrow.lol

ouh yeah have to do some agendas for tomorrow's meeting *slaps head*

i'll be back with you guys soon.maybe before the exams ;)

night!

Praise to Allah (Alhamdulillah)

2011-05-24T16:40:00.002+08:00

i'm addicted to blogger again.
it seems that i cant have a day without updating.
i prefer to update myself here because it is closer to my heart and i feel it's more 'private' rather that the tumblr or fb.too much exposure and i feel that im on the radar of everyone.
enough of oh-so many activities that i participated which people tracked me.

First and foremost, Alhamdulillah.i found serenity.
mostly because im at the state of relaxation and everything just fits in.
im being more grateful than i ever did because i have arrange so many activities in June alhamdulillah.
Firstly, on the 4-5th of June, i'll be participating a Qiamullail at Masjid Kampung Siglap.
it will be like a normal qiam with a twist.there will be a jogging session as well as captain's ball in the morning.
Then, there will be my ouh-so-first time-going-to-KL-alone without family nor friends. Only that when i reach there, i spend most of my time with both aljuniedian and wak tong friends.
Afterwards, will be the APEXpedition 2011 on 17th and 19th, its a camp for the students on how to achieve goals and how to overcome with exams.i cant wait for their reply :)

Im blissfully blessed :D
im getting the grip of everything right now.
and alhamdulillah, Allah give me the opportunity to do and be good to the society.
Alhamdulillah and Syukran lillah.

so who ever gonna say my life is boring, please do.
the thing is that, i dont like to publish everything in Facebook.so get a grip ok :)

its ok not to be ok

2011-05-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

i LOVE Jessie J!!!
this song is the most suitable for my condition right now :)

tears don't mean you're loosing,
everybody's bruising,
its ok not to be ok,
Just be true to who you are,
Who you are

Bila merindui itu haram

2011-05-23T01:18:00.003+08:00

I'm trying my best to change and alhamdulillah things have change mahlan2.

I'm blessed that when i feel something, or i wanted to do something, instantly a path is laid infornt of me.alhamdulillah.

at times i dont really understand what life has to offer. tiba2 ada saja rakan seperjuanganku yang dari dulu dan dia nasihatkan aku tapi aku tak ambil peduli.akhirnya, aku terjerat juga,padan muka aku.well,at least i GOT what i wanted.cerita kelakar yg membawa kepada kesedihan dan keinsafan bagi diriku.

rakan ku kata saya cantik.Ya Allah,malam2 gini di uji.tak bermaya sebenarnya.masih segar segalanya dalam ingatan.aku ambil sebagai pujian dan mungkin aku akan memakai purdah?hmmm...mungkin

growing up wasnt the best part of the period whereby i am happen not to be the famous girls in school.guys tend not to know me for who i am but through my circle of friends.definitely, my friends are much prettier than me and i always have that mindset that im not going to be better than them.i had trouble with my complex and how i present infront of others.but as time moves on and im went on my own direction of life, i try to figure out what specialities that i have.ok enough said about the past, now can we move on to 2011 already?

this year is a total turnaround for me.i think that im becoming wiser and i wanted a change.i feel that i've wasted my 2 years of not knowing where i wanted to go and what i wanted to do.i want a change and someone makes me sees that in his perspective view.i've never feel a slight regret of everything that i've done,the experience in life is blissful.some people keep on asking why i didnt persue my degree instead rather than taking 2.5 years of diploma.some asked why im not engage yet, even they do not know the story and what happen between me and him.and i felt relief.relief that derita merindui has finish its course, stop myself of having to see my parents cry all along,relief of having peace after constant fights of petty issues.

its not all bad with him.there's good memories and definitely he is the one that makes me for who i am now.he's the reason how i've become an optimistic person.he's the drive that makes me go all the way and all out for whatever we wanted in life no matter how hard life is.because life never fails on you if you never fail on life.he's the reason of me finding my inner self as a very stuborn person that wont give and take in any situations.he makes me believe how caring i am to a person, how to handle my parents.ouh there's so much things about him anyways.so much so that i've realise that we cant be together in any circumstances.

i've step up onto a next level where i've took charge of myself and i feel that im strong enough to go through this phase. eventually all the strenght that i've gained just wasted as my attempt was a big F.FAILURE.

ceritanya bergini.
idk why and how but at times this person i've contacted in fb seems giving a response which at times i also dont understand why.well, he did give me a tiny hope although i know back in my mind that its a messy situations and he wanted to do and whatever his doing but he wanted me to confess to him.but he keep on pushing i did told him.he didnt response which gave me a signal that im not in a good situation.
its hard for me not knowing what's on his mind and what his thoughts about me.it became from bad to worst and i cant stand i anymore.im not trying to run away from situations but it seems that he's not ready and he might not get over with that girl.hmmm.nevermind.
i asked around and they keep on saying to me just let it go, find someone better, he's not worth it and so on and so forth.it hurts me when people who do not know who you are and talked something bad.i felt bad because i told them that but i cant get myself to know what other people's opinions.
well they said some things which i wont be putting it here.
ade satu kenalan kate,mungkin fiza je yg perasan dan bertepuk sebelah tangan.mungkin aje dia pon berbual dgn org lain mcm tu juga.
saaaaaap.the next day, truth be told i saw the way he commented to the other ladies and my heart sank.i posted this
شعرت الخاصة حتى رأيت كنت تتحدث الى كل فرد مثل

ذلك
I felt special until I saw you talk to everyone like that =(

on my wall,just to express whatever my heart is saying and crying.few seconds later he msged me asking am i ok.i told him im ok.

its kinda weird how a person that i've never talked to and been faced to faced seem affacting my life so badly.hanya Allah sahaja tahu akan isi hati.

yeah, he saw me in the train n i guess i saw him too but he didnt approach me.perasaan at that moment of time,gasak uh,aku dah takde prasaan lagi.after few hours and days pass by,kenape banggang sgt tak approach aku?tau aku turun dover biar bertentang mata dgn dia.hah!

i told ya, its God's arrangement didnt i, but u wont want to listen.haiz.

dan bila merindui itu haram kerana ia blm menjadi hak milik kita yg halal,baru k tersedar.aku buang segala isi hati dan rasa yg tak perlu,seperti emo dan sebagainya,alhamdulillah hati ini makin tenang. semoga dia mendapat apa yang dia cari.

dan bagi diriku,aku telah jumpa ketenanganku.insyaAllah.

dan ustaz hussein yee berpesan, pasangkan niat.
Ya Allah punye lah susah nak pasang niat.tapi mesti!insyaAllah dgn ketenangan hati ni, aku memasang niat untuk mendirikan rumah tangga mengikut syariatullah dan sunnatullah.amiin ya Rabbal alamin.

memperbaiki diri utk masa hadapan,untuk keluarga masahadapan dan anak2 :)

dan bila dia senyum,saye senyum

2011-05-21T19:22:00.002+08:00

bila diuji, masyaAllah, bagaikan di pukau!

tetapi apakah maksudnya?

hmmm...takpe,insyaAllah aku akan redha dgn ketentuannya.

after a long break

2011-05-19T21:16:00.003+08:00

i put up alot of courage to actually open up this blog again.
its been a while.
i cant live in a state of denial.this is me and this is my life.
i have to face the fact i messed up my life.

this blog has been my soul.i've been writing here since i was sec 3 i guess.

all sorts of things i vent and rant here.

to some who really cared,you can read the whole bunch of previous posts to know me.but i have to warned you,heavy emotional contents throughout.

i love to write whenever i feel there's no one to talk to and i need to rant so many things.luckily there's platforms to rant at.the only thing is that some people read it in different perspective and so on.

i used to have a friendster which i deactivate it because i was with facebook.i dont know why but i didnt save any pictures from friendster to facebook.i remember i only have 2 mutual friends that i've known of which is fiza roslee and sirajuddin.we love to play superlatives which, i think, extinct.now there's so manny other games which doesnt really portrays the early age of facebook*sigh*

then there's twitter as my most addictive platform because its private i keep close friends with me.

then there was tumblr coz i keep on putting more pictures here rather than blogging.so i decided tumblr is the new platform.i keep it more on hijab styles and fashion.

now,
i've come back to my old blog where i love to rant and mostly people know me better here rather than any other platforms.
i dont want to flood my facebook as i used to.there's no need to tell the whole world eventually.

i am who i am.

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besides that, my most irritating brother went to tell my mom about him.so biskut of him because he overheard/eavesdrop the conversation between me and my favourite brother.

tipu lah kalau fiza takde pape.

most of my kenalan kate lupe kan aje.its not worth the heartache.its not worth being moody.dia dgn pendirian dia.lupekan ajelah fiza.
i try to do that right now.im trying.

takde gunanya nak terhege2 kalau org tak sudi.bak kata pepatah,hidung tak mancong,pipi tersorong2.dia dah ckp clear cut.

شعرت الخاصة حتى رأيت كنت تتحدث الى كل فرد مثل ذلك
I felt special until I saw you talk to everyone like that =(

betul lah kate kenalan tu.mungkin aje dia bebual dgn org lain pon mcm gitu,fiza je yg terasa.hmmm.

nonetheless,the more i keep pushing, the more it hurts me.

so i went to USS and scream my heart out.
alhamdulillah,i feel better.
now mugging time.

and hopefully i can overcome this.till then, im planning so many things in my mind.biase jugak the planner.i should become an executive planner or organisational manager.i should do something that interest me right.

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reflection time!
well i dont feel satisfy with myself right now.not that im being ungrateful, but is just that i do not feel that i've achieve anything yet.

at the age of 22, some of my friends tied their knots, some have their own children. for many, they still continue in their degree, some achieve what they wanted in their hobbies and interests.

for me?
im still neither here nor there.
im sitting too long in my comfort zone.after working 2 years and i didnt do anything.i didnt join any society,camps,bla3.
all i did is sit back and relax,just go with the flow.

i want to travel around the world(be it alone or with my friends/cousin) and i will make it happen.

first stop.KL-Genting. without my parents nor cousins.me, alone in my bus/train ride to and for SIN. weee~

insyaAllah next will be Redang with my gal friends.mintak2 dpt cuti ok?

then kalau jadi and cukup duit etc, i'll go even further.Eygpt,Palestine!insyaAllah.

cume mak bising.dia kate baik gi umrah or duit tu buat kahwin.baik gi dgn hubby to be.erk.

London will be in my list.insyaAllah kalau ade jodoh :DD

Bangkok, Bandung, Jakarta, Bali, Vietnam are in my list as well.that will be a short getaway with cuzzies i guess :)

@#$%&*(&^%$##$%^& back to reallity.blaja exams first!then can think about all this fiza!!!hehehhe.

ilalliqa'!!

kian part 2

2010-12-02T22:42:00.000+08:00

jika kau mengerti,hati ini masih sayangkan kamu,cintakan mu

namun begitu

sampai disini sahaja

mungkin ada esok

mungkin lusa

mungkin tiada

selamat tinggal.selamat jalan.

i really love you.i do.its been years with.for i now bid you farewell.you've been my only, only one. but i found a new lover and move on.sorry.im hurt too.

if still care for me, i'll update u abt my new lover ;)

goodbye blogger.i'll miss you.

Lost in Words

Love,

fizaH

Kian

2010-12-02T00:54:00.000+08:00

Even how hard you fall to the ground, you will stand right up again

like babies and toddlers

they will try to stand and walk again

even it takes time

even if it takes few more falls

baby steps

every step counts

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i sometimes wonder,

even thought the person had already say bad things to you,

you will recoil back to person

even if it takes time

even time won't heal the situation

but you still stick with the person like glue

that's called magic

the magic has lost

all the fairytale become the worst nightmares

for whatever that you fight for has no value

to the other person

only you became defensive

only you became egoist

only you think that you good enough

alas,party's over

everyone walked away

but they left the trash to clean up

the heart that beats

the soul that feels

there is still room for recovery

but it takes time

time will heal

only then this hand will pick up all the remaining

the trash

and heal

time won't heal

once the wood had been hammered by a nail

then you realise that it was at the wrong place

you pull it out

even time after time

there will still be a scar

the defect

that won't heal

even you plaster

even you paint

even you place something else

it will still be there

it will still be a defect

jika kau mengerti,hati ini masih sayangkan kamu,cintakan mu

namun begitu

sampai disini sahaja

mungkin ada esok

mungkin lusa

mungkin tiada

selamat tinggal.selamat jalan.

bole bela

aku bela ok?

im gone for gd~

saya redha segalanya lillahi ta'ala

week(weak)

2010-11-30T19:05:00.003+08:00

my flu have not subdue yet and im worried.yesterday i went to Wong Family Clinic to get some antibiotics.i feel a little fresh and ready for my work.i feel so bad that i spread the virus to my colleagues.Get well soon aites :)

maybe its because of my hectic schedule?no off days since mid of November.i push myself to the limit where my body can't take it anymore.i hardly rest.my mind is working overtime, thinking of something that i need to accomplish, to finish up my task over the weekends.

my madrasah is killing me.the kids are finally finishing their school term = i have to chiong marking of their exam papers,i hate this part k?on 11th there will be meet the parents session which i haven't make time to think whatever to say to their parents.GAWWWWDDD!

my sewing class is quite like a project runway, where we have to meet deadlines.for me,im on track.only thing is that i need to focus and concentrate.get the fabrics and sew!!

now, im planning something BIG and happening!!!!heheheheh.shhhh!

other than that, it's my end of month coming soon.n i haven'y finish up quite alot of things due to my sickness.die!!!

okla,gtg.bye!

2010-11-27T00:36:00.004+08:00

Verbal abuse is still abuse.It’s abuse in the form of words. They still burn, sting, hurt and put us in danger. Don’t assume that a few hurtful words won’t cause them their life. Don’t assume that just because you haven’t put one finger on them, you’re not responsible for what happens after that. Mentally and emotionally, they are bruising, bleeding, suffocating. Your words have power, be careful. Speak life and love.

Selfish again~

2010-11-27T00:21:00.002+08:00

note

2010-11-26T21:01:00.002+08:00

Keredhaan Tuhannya

2010-11-26T20:40:00.002+08:00

Orang-orang yang bertaqwa
Rindu akan kebenaran
Kejujuran dan keikhlasan
Keredhaan Tuhannya

Ke arah menjadi seorang pencinta kebenaran, insyaAllah.

Eminem : Now Playing : Love the Way You Lie feat. Rihanna

2010-11-25T23:51:00.002+08:00

2010-11-23T23:36:00.002+08:00

Date Night

2010-11-21T01:15:00.002+08:00

This is our date night.

Once every week.
We’re moody. We’re tired.
Oh what the hell!
We’re out anyways.
Just you and me.

We don’t hold hands.
We don’t cuddle.
But we’ll enjoy conversations
And looking at each other.

This is our date night.
We’re not like other people.
They stare at us. They whisper.
They roll their eyes. They snigger.

This is our date night.
Worn out from work.
Worn out from fights.
Worn out from putting up a front.
And not sleeping at night.

This is our date night.
We should do this more.
Your ability to still smile
After all this madness
That was all
I was looking for.

My A line skirt

2010-11-18T20:20:00.002+08:00

sorry takle rotate the picture.isnt it nice?it's 90% done.tak sabar nak wear to work :))

a side from that my blouse, floral prints will be ready soon :)

2010-11-18T19:48:00.004+08:00

2010-11-18T15:21:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, Allah breaks your spirit to save your soul. Sometimes, HE breaks our heart to make us whole. Sometimes, Allah allows pain so we can be stronger. Sometimes, Allah sends us failure so we can be humble. Sometimes, Allah allows illness so we can take better care of ourselves. Sometimes, Allah takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything HE gave us.

Off days

2010-11-18T15:20:00.002+08:00

i thought of having 2 days off but heyy, that's bad enuf right?leaving everything at work.

but i deserve a holiday.

well,i try to finish up whatever that's left for me.my jahit of course :))

ok nak tido dulu,later will continue :P

selamat hari raya haji

2010-11-16T21:17:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Haji everyone!
my life is at the peak now coz everything is god/fine.
my dressmaking class dah start on sunday and MY SKIRT IS COMING N SOON :))
and my BLOUSE TOO :))
saturday was my day to relax the kids having exams.Yeah,next week will be a tough one as i need to mark all the papers :P
ok,other than that,sakura for my colleagues as well as family is perfect everyone was happy and delighted.thankfully that sakura cooked better than last time.Yeay!!

besok raye will be visiting my maternal side and loving it :) cik uchop masak of courselah bet kan.

mak suruh i go to the slimming centre for the slimming pills.i guess i should go or i have to work out myself :P

oklah dah nak tolong my mom masak and kemas for raye.toodles!

sharing is caring :))

Are you?

2010-11-09T14:58:00.002+08:00

How to be more productive right now

By Toni Tiu – November 8th, 2010

Home Grown by Toni Tiu
For Yahoo! Southeast Asia

You’re at work. You’re just staring at your computer. You feel like your brain is already fried—and your day hasn’t even started yet. Hello, mental block! There are times when you’re so overwhelmed by your workload that you don’t even know where to start. There are also days when you can’t focus on what needs to be done. Here are some tips that will help you get over your slump and take on your tasks ASAP.

You have to learn how to say, “No!” to the tasks that aren’t urgent. Multitasking doesn’t necessarily make you more productive. If seven tennis balls are thrown at you, chances are you’ll only catch one or two. When you’re doing too many tasks at the same time, you’ll only be able to focus on one. If you try to do everything, you only end up not doing anything right. That’s what happens when you spread yourself too thin.

Stop playing computer games at work. Worried over your Café World dishes? Frustrated by the hidden bombs in Minesweeper? You may not realize how much time you waste on these games until your boss asks for that long-overdue report. Playing games during breaks may refresh your mind and entertain you, but you have to know when to ditch them.

Turn down the noise. Switch off the TV or your mobile phone (as long as you’re not expecting work-related calls, of course). If the source of noise is an officemate with a loud voice or the distracting ringing of office phones, wear earplugs or listen to soothing music. Noise reduces work effectiveness, so it’s best to block it out.

Play the right kind of music. Once you’ve dealt with the noise, you can opt to play some mood-boosting music. Does classical music help you focus? Does rock music energize you? Experiment with different types of music and find out which genre works best for you. Find the soundtrack for productivity.

Take a power nap. Feeling drowsy after a heavy lunch? There’s no sense in forcing yourself to work if you can hardly keep your eyes open. A quick nap can boost your energy. Set an alarm that goes off in 15 minutes so you won’t oversleep. Get up as soon as the alarm rings. Resist hitting the snooze button.

Work under a limited time. That kitchen timer at home may be help you maximize your time at the office. Set it for 30 minutes and do as much as you can within that time frame. Sometimes, knowing that your time is limited can push you to work smarter.

Know when to ask for more time. Crunch time pressure can become unbearable and adversely affect your performance. You can try asking for just a little more time. Who knows? You may be granted a 30-minute extension and you’ll be able to come up with better work.

Disconnect from the Internet. Online distractions—such as surfing the Net and checking your e-mails—can cause productivity to drop. Close your browsers and stop checking your inbox every five minutes.

Take advantage of brainstorming sessions. Two heads are better than one—especially when it comes to stimulating creative juices. When you’ve run out of ideas, ask your officemate for suggestions.Brainstorming encourages lateral thinking, which can lead to more inspired solutions.

You can be productive right now. You can start by putting yourself in a productive state of mind. It doesn’t matter which productivity boosting technique you use. Everything will fall into place if you have the right mindset.

happy

2010-11-07T12:42:00.002+08:00

happy.

everything is ok now.

im glad.

thanks aite!

kak khalisah's engagement was a success :)

more projects to come.

and i'm loving every bits and pieces of it.

kak khalis looks very pretty and she was excited when i gave her the tri shutter card.

yeay!a success!

later ill mit up w my beloved friends and will spend time together eventhough im so tired and sleepy :P